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Okay, so. AHAHAHAHHAAH.  
10:57pm 11/15/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane

The last thing I posted was from the founding fathers. This is, too, but... on a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT NOTE.

A LETTER FROM BENJAMIN FRANKLIN


June 25, 1745

MY DEAR FRIEND:-
I know of no Medicine fit to diminish the violent natural inclination you mention; and if I did, I think I should not communicate it to you. Marriage is the proper Remedy. It is the most natural State of Man, and therefore the State in which you will find solid Happiness. Your Reason against entering into it at present appears to be not well founded. The Circumstantial Advantages you have in View by Postponing it, are not only uncertain, but they are small in comparison with the Thing itself, the being married and settled. It is the Man and Woman united that makes the complete Being. Separate she wants his force of Body and Strength of Reason; he her Softness, Sensibility and acute Discernment. Together they are most likely to succeed in the World. A single Man has not nearly the Value he would have in that State of Union. He is an incomplete Animal. He resembles the odd Half of a Pair of Scissors.
If you get a prudent, healthy wife, your Industry in your Profession, with her good Economy, will be a Fortune sufficient.
But if you will not take this Counsel, and persist in thinking that Commerce with the Sex is inevitable, then I repeat my former Advice that in your Amours you should prefer old Women to young ones. This you call a Paradox, and demand my reasons. They are these:

1. Because they have more Knowledge of the world, and their Minds are better stored with Observations; their conversation is more improving, and more lastingly agreeable.
2. Because when Women cease to be handsome, they study to be good. To maintain their Influence over Man, they supply the Diminution of Beauty by an Augmentation of Utility. They learn to do a thousand Services, small and great, and are the most tender and useful of Friends when you are sick. Thus they continue amiable. And hence there is hardly such a thing to be found as an Old Woman who is not a good Woman.
3. Because there is no hazard of children, which irregularly produced may be attended with much inconvenience.
4. Because through more Experience they are more prudent and discreet in conducting an Intrigue to prevent Suspicion. The Commerce with them is therefore safer with regard to your reputation; and regard to theirs, if the Affair should happen to be known, considerate People might be inclined to excuse an old Woman, who would kindly take care of a young Man, form his manners by her good Councils, and prevent his ruining his Health and Fortune among mercenary Prostitutes.
5. Because in every Animal that walks upright, the Deficiency of the Fluids that fill the Muscles appears first in the highest Part. The Face first grows lank and Wrinkled; then the Neck; then the Breast and Arms; the lower parts continuing to the last as plump as ever; so that covering all above with a Basket, and regarding only what is below the Girdle, it is impossible of two Women to know an old one from a young one. And as in the Dark all Cats are grey, the Pleasure of Corporal Enjoyment with an old Woman is at least equal and frequently superior; every Knack being by Practice capable by improvement.
6. Because the sin is less. The Debauching of a Virgin may be her Ruin, and make her Life unhappy.
7. Because the Compunction is less. The having made a young Girl miserable may give you frequent bitter Reflections; none of which can attend making an old Woman happy.
8. 8th & lastly. They are so grateful!!! Thus much for my Paradox.

But still I advise you to marry immediately; being sincerely Your Affectionate Friend, Benj. Franklin



isn't this a fucking riot?!

 
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Just a little reminder  
02:21am 11/15/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane





"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness.

That to secure these rights, Governments are instituted among Men, deriving their just powers from the consent of the governed...

...whenever any Form of Government becomes destructive of these ends, it is the Right of the People to alter or to abolish it, and to institute new Government, laying its foundation on such principles and organizing its powers in such form, as to them shall seem most likely to effect their Safety and Happiness."


Not only the right but the RESPONSIBILITY of the people.


WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE WAITING FOR?!?!


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"Let's have a bachelor party, with chicks, and booze, and guns, and FIRE TRUCKS."  
06:30pm 11/04/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane
i... admit defeat. >.>

One of those memes where you put your library on shuffle and take the song titles for the answers to the questions.

the blank questions are here )


...Uh. I have a 30,000 track library here... so this'll be random!


....looking over it now, I -swear-, I really did randomize everything! o.o'

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'IS THIS OKAY' YOU SAY? "Butterfly" d.k.SMILE
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF "Coughing Colors" by Tilly & the Wall
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? "Cecilia" Simon & Garfunkel
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? "Angel of Music" Phantom of the Opera
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? "Twisted Transistor" Korn
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? "Full Speed Ahead" Kernel Panic
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? "Dirty Deeds" AC/DC (AHaHaHaHAHAHAH)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? "Innocence Lost" London After Midnight
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? "Hooker with a Penis" Tool
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? "This Is what Dreams Are Made Of" Hilary Duff
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? "Futility of Prayer" Catatonic Despair
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? "Let's Do IT!" Joan Jett (Cole Porter
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? "Set Yourself On Fire" Stars (I mistook the album for the title for a second, it was almost "Your Ex-lover is Dead")
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? "Yearbook" Hanson


holy cripes, some of those were... Perfectly uncanny. o.o''' Thus why I'm reposting this here. XD It started on Wajas. DAMN WAJAS!


Oh, and my Halloween? Fucking rocked. Ohyeah. I got worked over by a babe with a flogger. Life is good.




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No, you don't get an LJ cut, damnit.  
12:04pm 10/23/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane
some lyrics, to what is pretty much my new theme song. >.>'


Love you dolly.


Tilly and the Wall - COUGHING COLORS

She homed with thieves
Kicked up dirty leaves
She was a maniac
No one's heart attack
She got around
Slept on the bad side of town
She was cooler than you
Way cooler than me
She was true, all blinded and bruised
She didn't give a fuck
No she had given up
She was alive
She was caught on fire
She was everything
She was all of this

She opened up and laid it all right there
She said, "i don't mind
No, no i don't care
I'll help you shovel out my shallow hole
And i know i know they're threatening
But at least we're not the ones carrying
Such heavy heavy heavy stoning stones

And yeah i know they'll get you down
They'll do you in and they'll drag it out
'cause me and you, we are one of a kind"

She liked to lose
Never wore Sunday shoes
She found her luck in wells and corner stores and jails
She was crazy
A downtown kind of baby
Always dangerous, she got me down on my knees
She made it rain
She called the wind and then it came
Oh with the wave of her hand
She brought the sunshine right in
She was the sky
Beyond steeple and the choir
Oh, the preacher's amen
His hallelujah child

She opened up and laid it all right there
She said, "i don't mind
No, no i don't care
I'll help you shovel out my shallow hole
And i know i know they are threatening
But at least we're not the ones carrying
Such heavy heavy heavy stoning stones

So when your bones are broke and you're all alone
And the fog's so thick you can't see up close
Just know that i will end up strangled too
And when the floods they come all rushing in
And the boat is full and you can't get in
Oh, it's okay if you don't want to swim
And when you're swallowed up, oh, don't you cry
Just give right in, don't try to fight
'cause baby i wouldn't pay no mind
There's nothing you can do"

They'll have you coughing up your colors
They'll have you coughing up your colors

She sang the blues
Out of time and out of tune
Spoke no silver spoon
Only simple truths
She was a friend, stabbed backs and broke plans
She would give you his coat
Or put nails through his hand

She was wise, full of magic and life
Oh you could see it in her eyes
Oh yeah i saw it in her eyes
She was more than this
Oh way more than this
She was everything
She was all of this




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mnwwhaaaa  
10:24am 10/20/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane
oh dear, dearie me

WHAT WILL I BE FOR HALLOWE'EN?!



 
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SARAH ZAHD - repost~! for the masses  
06:12am 10/17/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane
Okay, so. Last year, I wrote something for NANO. This was what I had so far. I like it enough to try and pick up where I left off last year for this November.


PLEASE readses! It's full of smut. Delicious smut.


Seriously. This is a big, fat, NC-17. )

CONTINUED IN THE NEXT POST!


 
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SARAH ZAHD - repost~! for the masses pt 2  
06:10am 10/17/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane
the rest. READ ON! )


And that's where it stops. I'll be resuming for www.NANOWRIMO.org this year!


 
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Like she says, get your free copy now!  
06:43pm 10/13/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane




Watch me now. Please. Do it. DOOO IIIIT.




Oh. Oooh, fuck yes. Talk sexy logic for me, gorgeous girl with fuckably amazing accent. GIVE ME THAT THINKING NOW.



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12:24am 10/07/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane



i promise i won't use a gun


 
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My DATE. wtf is the world coming to!  
07:20am 09/15/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane



Oh. Oh, my fucking gods. HOLY SHIT.

Okay, so. Tonight I went on a date.

Yes, yes, get over your initial shock and horror. I've never been asked out before. I've gone out with someone I was in a relationship with, but it's not quite the same. And I wasn't expecting it to go so well, even though I've known him (yes, the other big shocker!) for a while, but after some time having coffee we ended up in the church parking lot, and by the time that mystery car pulled in my bra was off. I'm glad we were interrupted, I'm not sure what might have happened. (Mostly because I have NO idea what to do to get a guy off by hand. Take that as you will.) BUt suffice it to say that I guess we're now kind of actually dating. He's going to take me out again soon.

I am just stunned by these developments. There are other, much more complicated parts to this, but for now, the important part is that I'm surprised at myself. I always imagined that if having been abused was going to give me trouble with intimacy, it would be with letting others touch me, and not touching them, but alas. It was easy to let his hands roam but I don't know what I could have done with my own hands. @_@ Fortunately he's patient and willing to teach me, in more ways than one.

I'm pretty confused about all of this right now. I'm not the kind of person for whom this sort of thing happens quickly. Or really, happens at all. Also, his tongue in my mouth didn't make me want to gag. I won't say it was thrilling or enjoyable, but it wasn't repulsive like it used to be. The weirdest part was the bristlies. I can still feel his beard on my lip. o.o'

I should go to bed but I'm way too wired up. And the people I need to talk to are all asleeeeeep you lame fuckers! Yes, you know who you are. ~_^

Just so you know, baby, I still love and lust after you. I just... think I'm going to try this for a while and see if I can function in a normal relationship. Maybe even ENJOY one.

Comments welcome Y_Y even if it's just to say "omfg i can't believe you you slut!". And no, I didn't fuck him. I wouldn't have. I let him do too much for a first date as it was. *coughs*

The most ironic part of this is - well. I won't say it. I'm going to start one hell of a shitstorm with this, I just know it.

Fuck, his nails are sharp. X_X


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Well, well well.  
11:48pm 09/12/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane



Okay. So I've been consumed.

I even changed my colors. I haven't changed my layout a bit in a couple -years-. XD

YEY REPO.


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04:31pm 09/09/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane
Good fucking gods. It's been a long ass time since I've bothered to update this.

Really, I'm only here so i can post some lyrics to print them out on the other computer.

REPO! the genetic opera )

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03:45pm 04/17/2009
 
 
Crazy Jane


....what the hell?

HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE?


 
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